now I have finished the foundation course and back to Hong Kong again, will be back to Notts on 29th September. it has been 7 months already since the first time i left HK, and today i just realize i have changed a lot that i would never have imagined before. anyway, i am still who i am despite the changes. for the past few days, i was on an emotional rollercoaster, spent most of my time at home again probably because the weather is too hot here that i can't even stay outdoor more than an hour. plus, i mean stay at home alone, i know i get used to it actually, but i just don't feel fine this time as my brother is the one who asked me to go home and eventually he is the one who fucking leave me behind.
well, i wrote something on another blog to release my emotions this morning, i feel less stressed and better actually.LOL. i know i swore too much but i can't help.
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fucking leave me alone
I'm in Hong Kong again but somehow the feeling is totally different from the last time in May.
Okay, honestly you can simple ignore what I'm gonna write here because I'm emotional tonight for some unknown reasons, and I cried. I know the reasons, but it is a bit embarassed to mention as people will definitely think I'm stupid for being sad about that, hell yea, I know I'm. I came all the way back to Hong Kong just for my fucking brother since he told me he was lonely at home (cuz my parents and sister were not in HK) and wished me to go home as soon as possible, so even though I had to deal with lots of things like applying visa, moving out when I didn't even have a new accommodation, etc. I still managed to settle everything within a week after exams, got the flight ticket the day before I left. Bitch, I'm all here for you. It has been a week already since I'm home, but we haven't even had a meal together, damn you, not even a fucking meal. You are always busy, not literally busy for serious stuff, I understand you need to go to the training of basketball school team, it's absolutely understandable that but are you sure that you want to have dinner with your friends after you are home instead of the stupid ass who just come back for you and wait for you at home for the whole fucking day? you know what, you pissed me off this time. Don't you dare talk to me! I know you are gonna pretend that nothing happens or I should say you don't even care about how i feel. i feel like crap here as i have nothing to do, i left everything unfinished in Nottingham. fucking leave me alone. FUCK YOU. YOU ARE SUCH AN ASS.
