Sunday 13 September 2009
Wednesday 2 September 2009
Saturday 29 August 2009
Home again.
now I have finished the foundation course and back to Hong Kong again, will be back to Notts on 29th September. it has been 7 months already since the first time i left HK, and today i just realize i have changed a lot that i would never have imagined before. anyway, i am still who i am despite the changes. for the past few days, i was on an emotional rollercoaster, spent most of my time at home again probably because the weather is too hot here that i can't even stay outdoor more than an hour. plus, i mean stay at home alone, i know i get used to it actually, but i just don't feel fine this time as my brother is the one who asked me to go home and eventually he is the one who fucking leave me behind.
well, i wrote something on another blog to release my emotions this morning, i feel less stressed and better actually.LOL. i know i swore too much but i can't help.
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fucking leave me alone
I'm in Hong Kong again but somehow the feeling is totally different from the last time in May.
Okay, honestly you can simple ignore what I'm gonna write here because I'm emotional tonight for some unknown reasons, and I cried. I know the reasons, but it is a bit embarassed to mention as people will definitely think I'm stupid for being sad about that, hell yea, I know I'm. I came all the way back to Hong Kong just for my fucking brother since he told me he was lonely at home (cuz my parents and sister were not in HK) and wished me to go home as soon as possible, so even though I had to deal with lots of things like applying visa, moving out when I didn't even have a new accommodation, etc. I still managed to settle everything within a week after exams, got the flight ticket the day before I left. Bitch, I'm all here for you. It has been a week already since I'm home, but we haven't even had a meal together, damn you, not even a fucking meal. You are always busy, not literally busy for serious stuff, I understand you need to go to the training of basketball school team, it's absolutely understandable that but are you sure that you want to have dinner with your friends after you are home instead of the stupid ass who just come back for you and wait for you at home for the whole fucking day? you know what, you pissed me off this time. Don't you dare talk to me! I know you are gonna pretend that nothing happens or I should say you don't even care about how i feel. i feel like crap here as i have nothing to do, i left everything unfinished in Nottingham. fucking leave me alone. FUCK YOU. YOU ARE SUCH AN ASS.
well, i wrote something on another blog to release my emotions this morning, i feel less stressed and better actually.LOL. i know i swore too much but i can't help.
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fucking leave me alone
I'm in Hong Kong again but somehow the feeling is totally different from the last time in May.
Okay, honestly you can simple ignore what I'm gonna write here because I'm emotional tonight for some unknown reasons, and I cried. I know the reasons, but it is a bit embarassed to mention as people will definitely think I'm stupid for being sad about that, hell yea, I know I'm. I came all the way back to Hong Kong just for my fucking brother since he told me he was lonely at home (cuz my parents and sister were not in HK) and wished me to go home as soon as possible, so even though I had to deal with lots of things like applying visa, moving out when I didn't even have a new accommodation, etc. I still managed to settle everything within a week after exams, got the flight ticket the day before I left. Bitch, I'm all here for you. It has been a week already since I'm home, but we haven't even had a meal together, damn you, not even a fucking meal. You are always busy, not literally busy for serious stuff, I understand you need to go to the training of basketball school team, it's absolutely understandable that but are you sure that you want to have dinner with your friends after you are home instead of the stupid ass who just come back for you and wait for you at home for the whole fucking day? you know what, you pissed me off this time. Don't you dare talk to me! I know you are gonna pretend that nothing happens or I should say you don't even care about how i feel. i feel like crap here as i have nothing to do, i left everything unfinished in Nottingham. fucking leave me alone. FUCK YOU. YOU ARE SUCH AN ASS.
Saturday 15 August 2009
Tuesday 28 July 2009
deacon4 - you're amazing!
Weird but I'm happy.
I haven't felt like this in such a long time, I love your passion probably because I see some of me in you. it's so fantastic to see people struggling for their dreams, keep climbing till they reach their dreams, if you really love it that much, it's worth struggling for, so go for it, I believe in you and I know I will do something great in my life too. NEVER LOSE YOUR PASSION IN THE WAY YOU LIVE.
When I bit off more than I could chew
But through it all when there was doubt
I ate it up and spit it out
I faced it all and I stood tall
And did it my way
Thursday 14 May 2009
Friday 24 April 2009
24 04 2009
It has been three days already since I back to Hong Kong from Notts. I thought that I would have a busy life in this month, but the fact is that I've spent most of the time in my room, I know I look like a lonely freak, yet I'm enjoying my life now, so just fuck the rest.
Frankly speaking, there is another reason keep me home, as I told most of my friends I put on so much weight say 2xpounds in 3 months, and I almost lose all my confidence to go out and meet the people I know, I hate to see myself swell up more and more day by day! I blame that on the monotonous UK life as there is NO entertainment execpt drinking and eating which makes people fat, and in order to kill time there, I was absolutely out of control on drinking and eating! Therefore, the first thing I have to do in Hong Kong is to lose some weight, don't try to induce me man!
And the reason that I stay in my room and face the stupid laptop most time is that mum's brother, my uncle and aunt plus one of their friends came to our place as visitors, they are good people, but if you know me well, you should have known that I feels uncomfortable staying with people who I don't live with. Also, I wanted to spend more time with parents, sister and brother, the family time, however I didn't cuz mum need to show them around, chill out with them ( thats understandable but I really want to stay with her!) . I can't do anything I like in the living room, so I chose to stay in my room, it's pathetic.
At a certain point, somehow I felt like I had never been to UK, everything is just the same as 3 months ago and I'm having my routine. So I think the fats inside my body is the only proof to remind that I've been to notts.
oh damn Im sleepy.
Frankly speaking, there is another reason keep me home, as I told most of my friends I put on so much weight say 2xpounds in 3 months, and I almost lose all my confidence to go out and meet the people I know, I hate to see myself swell up more and more day by day! I blame that on the monotonous UK life as there is NO entertainment execpt drinking and eating which makes people fat, and in order to kill time there, I was absolutely out of control on drinking and eating! Therefore, the first thing I have to do in Hong Kong is to lose some weight, don't try to induce me man!
And the reason that I stay in my room and face the stupid laptop most time is that mum's brother, my uncle and aunt plus one of their friends came to our place as visitors, they are good people, but if you know me well, you should have known that I feels uncomfortable staying with people who I don't live with. Also, I wanted to spend more time with parents, sister and brother, the family time, however I didn't cuz mum need to show them around, chill out with them ( thats understandable but I really want to stay with her!) . I can't do anything I like in the living room, so I chose to stay in my room, it's pathetic.
At a certain point, somehow I felt like I had never been to UK, everything is just the same as 3 months ago and I'm having my routine. So I think the fats inside my body is the only proof to remind that I've been to notts.
oh damn Im sleepy.
Friday 17 April 2009
Sunday 29 March 2009
Monday 23 March 2009
home
hey all
im going home on 20/4
kinda nervous now lol
i'll see you soon, it won't be long........i'm on the road...the road to home!
im going home on 20/4
kinda nervous now lol
i'll see you soon, it won't be long........i'm on the road...the road to home!
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Thursday 5 March 2009
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